When is it all gonna be over? Never.

I’ve been really down lately.

The negative thoughts never stop haunting my mind.

I’m mentally disturbed by everything in my life.

I keep asking myself,

‘Why am I being like this?’

‘Why can’t I think of the brighter side in life?’

‘Why can’t I be like my friends who are so optimistic and carefree?’

‘Why have I changed into some monstrous person?’

‘Where is my happy-go-lucky attitude?’

I’ve lost the strength to rise again.

I’m falling apart.

I have nothing to hold on to.

I’m really tired of my pessimistic mind.

I have no more energy to fight back.

I know I’ll breakdown.

This is definitely the biggest downfall of Chai Yoon Jhen so far.